When we were young, we were taught to think that life is black and white. Yes or no. In or out. Love or hate. No in between. But as we grow older, we realize that there are many shades of blue, many types of red, many yellows, greens ad infinitum. We thought that if two people love eachother, they are honest and true. And that, that is the only way to love. But no, it's not like that. Sometimes, you have to keep some things to yourself, some things you shouldn't tell your partner. Imagine if there were no surprises, no more white lies, no more buttering things up. Imagine if the day never ends where you either sleep happy or wake long enough to ruin the other's day. Well that's reality.
Right now, i'm experiencing a severe case of black and white. Too much honesty and good faith that i don't think it's healthy. No sensorship, no pride, no lies and no holding back. A relationship sped up to it's full ripeness.
I think that the honeymoon stage is very essential. You take away the honeymoon, you take away the emotional investment and take away the opportunity to get to know the person better. Likes, dislikes, love and hate. You also take away the anchor of someone to stay. Suppose you take away such colors of love and speed it up right away to pure honesty and jist no holding back your thoughts and ypu get conflict. You get shocked at the other's reaction to the situation and wouldn't know how to approach.
I miss my colors. If it means i can take back a lot of things and just start over i'll do it. Maybe then, i'll have my rainbow by now.